if you love something let it go...

In the last 24 hours I've gone in search of support to two of the people i most respect in my life, and whom i trusted most not only to be honest with me but also to give me the benefit of a doubt and to build me up.

Both of those friends questioned my judgment, demeaned my feelings and honestly made me second guess myself.

For the first time in my life I'm not sitting back and waiting; I'm leaving all of my comfort zones, and I'm doing things that I never would otherwise do because this means so much to me.

If you don't agree, say so. But please be supportive, and be confident in me as I always am in you. I deserve to be happy every bit as much as you do, and I am every bit as capable of achieving that happiness as you are and have been. I have worked very hard to stand by you even when things were tumultuous. I have taken heat for simply associating with you. And I've done it because I respect you and because you mean a lot to me.

This is the area in which I am least confident in my life, and as such this is when i need you the most. I don't feel as though it's any great challenge to rise to the occasion here.

I sometimes wish i had a magic 8 ball for life, so that whenever I had a dire question I could have the answer. Unfortunately I have to figure everything out for myself, just as you have done. You wouldn't be where you are without the support of your friends. What makes me any different?

I'm over toxic friendships, but somedays it seems like that's just about all that I have.


I live my life with absolutely no regrets, because every decision i make is thought through and considered, and made with such incredible conviction that i will always be confident i made the best possible decision i could with my knowledge and judgment. My head and my heart tell me the same thing, and while i have learned and will learn many more hard lessons in life I'll stay in the same place if I can't gain the confidence and support to move forward.


On that note, i refer you to my previous post for a lesson in priorities.